Something Worth Dying For

I am so torn up inside. I want something worth fighting for. I want to see a church that truly reflects the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. What is the Church? I once heard the church called my mother who is a whore.

The church is like a whore. So full of problems, mismanagement, sin, and all these other sorts of junk that weighs it down, that constricts it, that causes so many people to get disillusioned with it. That hurts people, that causes the gentiles to blaspheme the name of God.

Yet at the same time, the Church is like my mother. The one that has given me life. Without my 'mother' with all her faults, I would not know Jesus. It has been there in my darkest times and pulled me out of the pit.

Yet there is this burning desire in my heart, this tremendous holy discontent to see the Church, universally rise up to what it is called to. A church that preaches the word, boldly, clearly and concisely. A church that loves one another and lays down their lives for each other. A church that brings people into their lives and shares their hope and their warmth with one another. A church that cares about the individual and not the numbers. A church where there are miracles, where lives are changed daily, where people are added to their number each day. Where serving God is a JOY and not a chore.

God please, I beg you, move in YOUR church. Please do something. I don't know how to take it, I don't know how to support when I see so many faults. God I just want to share about you, God I just want to see people come to know Christ. Everything else is secondary. God I want to see YOU glorified, magnified. Loved.

God it's not just about Sunday, it must flow on to our daily lives. There must be an opportunity where the Church can act as the body of Christ. Where it can truly be the hands and the feet. God there is no point in a church that solely focus's on Sunday. There must be a church that brings people into their lives, that loves, edifies, builds. God there must be true friendship and fellowship built up. A sharing of lives and love.

God please have mercy on us. God give us wisdom. Lord, help me to grow in my patients and humility.

Jesus. I need, I want, I live for You.

Traded

Traded from me,

Time with you.

The years have flown

Yet we still play the same tune.

If I had a wish,

Oh but one

My wish would be

To turn back to when we begun.

To share laughter,

To learn everything from you,

Yet instead it was traded

For a private school.

Yet there is no bitterness

Only sorrow

We realise too late

The time was borrowed.

No longer a tie between

My sisters, you and me

Traded just like that

God let us go back.

God it is only in you, that I find myself, my place, my home. God it is only in you, that I have my value, that I have my purpose. Jesus, but by your grace, there go I.

Long time no see

Wow, it has been almost 8 months since I last made a post on my youth blog.

Well even if no one ever reads this, it is a great opportunity for me to glorify God and give Him the praise and honour.

UPDATE


I've moved to the university group and under the leadership and guidance of Andy Leake who is doing an awesome job. He is a great man of God, 34 and single :D for all you who are single, female, Godly and willing to come to Adelaide for a missions trip :D

Anyway, youth is still on, same time same place! It is being run by my good friends Nick, Joe and Vivian. Youth group has been able to grow in so much depth because of these three. They are taking Youth group to a place I would never have been able to do myself. I am so honoured and blessed that the kids get great leaders such as these guys to lead them.

I think the main thing that I wanted to talk about tonight was contentment in Christ.

I see so often in ministry and serving, so many people striving to please either God or Man. I know that there is a part of us that always wants to be encouraged and complimented from others and that is okay. But when we start to serve Christ in order to recieve applaus from anyone but Christ himself, we miss the point.

Our reward becomes other peoples approval and our joy and peace in Christ is sold cheaply for a few words.

I don't say this because I am perfect, but rather I say this because I myself have done that in the past. So much i've strived so hard and for all the wrong reasons that although I got the job done, i missed the heart of God.

The heart of God is so important. God's heart is one of love. He doesn't want us to strive in order for us to win his love. He just wants us to receive His love.

Imagine, if you had a child, or imagine your nephew or neice. Imagine that you love them dearly and you want to give them a hug. But they said 'wait, let me do the dishes first, or clean my room first, or get a glass of water for you, only then I will allow you to hug me, because then I would be worthy of your love'.

That is totally wrong thinking, we love our children regardless of what they do or how they perform. Yet we view God in this same manner, we assume that if we cannot or do not perform, we cannot recieve God's love. But God is faithful and just to forgive when we repent of our sins. He then seperates our sin from us as far as the east is from the west. Then He loves us, just as we are, just where we are.

My encouragement, is stop striving. Allow God to love you, rest in Him.