A CD of Doubt

It's 6:45 am and I think God just gave me a picture/word for myself.

Which is strange and wonderful for a couple of reasons.

a) i normally don't get words in pictures.
b) i normally don't think of anything profound before 10


What i saw was a CD, one of those blank looking CD's. This CD was the 'doubt of my ability to minister'.... and i thought..... wat the....

But then I was thinking a little bit more and i thought, yah... I do subconciously, without voicing it, doubt my ability and calling in God to minister to the people that God has delegated me to look after.

Then i thought.... why a CD???

It is like these thoughts play over and over and over and over in my head... so I begin to think that what is playing is the truth, when it is really just a foreign 'noise'. It's not what God is saying about me.

Then... the CD snapped in half...

Which I believe represents that God is doing/going to do some work in my life that will stop this doubt. Not to become arrogent, but to become what God needs me to be to do what God has called me to do.

I wanted to encourage you all not to let a CD of 'doubt' play in your mind of what God has called you to do, but rather have faith!!!

Luke 1:45 said about Mary the mother of Jesus 'Blessed is she who BELIEVED for there will be a FULFILLMENT of those things which were TOLD to her from the LORD'

When God has 'told' us what we are to become, and what we are to do with our life... when we start to have faith and believe... the fulfillment of those things begins to happen! AMEN¬

Macca's kills

This is what i've been learning how to do at uni ^_^
LoL it's really bad


The final scene is meant to be.... 'artistic'


Hope you enjoy it!!!


By the way, there is meant to be backing sound effects... but they didn't' upload for some reason :(

LoL by the way, the girl is studying to become a drama teacher...

Youth Group Video!

One more random video! This was after a Youth Group meeting and we're making our way back to church. It's raining but you can't see the rain ... so you'll have to trust me on it :)

I'm planning to upload other random video's later in the week!

My Niece Madison Grace Barrett

This is the newest addition to the 'Delaney Family' my young niece Madison Grace.

She's really cute... amazingly when she was born she was 10 pounds over. I think she'll end up being a pretty tall girl, since her mum is about 5'8 and dad's about 6'2-4. 

She's very cute, although at the moment all she does is eat, sleep and .... go to the toilet.

Cleaning Gladys's House

This is from Gladys house... it was really really messy, but it was good to bless her. Although i have to admit i wasn't the best sport on the day! 

It's good to bless others and help them out!

James 1:27 says "Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world"

Boot Camp Week!

Well, i haven't posted in a while! This week i have an intensive course for 1 week. This is because i'm doing a graduate degree in education and instead of being a 4 year degree, it's crammed into 20 months. Thus this semester i have 9 subjects!!!!!!!!


This week i'm doing a semester subject in 1 week... sooooo i'm a little bit busy and a little bit stressed! So pray for me!


It's actually a computer course in apple mac applications and how to utilize some of these applications in the class room. One of them is really cool called keynotes! You can do some really cool stuff with it, so i'll try to post something up later this week. We are also learning how to use mac's blue tooth capabilities! YAY i get to download all my video's from my phone to the computer and i'll post some of those later this week too!


Keep praying, keep trusting in God! Looking to have a weekend BBQ probable in week 5 or something...

Random Things About Ben

Here are some random facts about Ben, if you wish to share yours please post in the comments!


1) When i was really really little... (like 2-3 years old) i use to be afraid of grass... sooooo... my not so nice parents use to put me on a mat in the middle of the grass, go out, do the shopping then come back...

2) I live in a really nice house, drive a nice car... But i'm completely broke... lol... ironic.

3) Before my parents got Foxtel, on average i watch about one hour worth of t.v a month! .... but i use the computer for about an hour or two a day!

4) I have had only 3 hair styles in my life... it takes me a long time to change the way my hair looks. Generally i tell the hair dresser to do what ever they want, but when i get home i still style my hair the same.

5) I really really really dislike shopping. Unless.... i have money... generally i do a clothes shop once every 2-3 years.

6) I have lived in either boarding school or by myself since i was 11.5 yrs old. As a result, i have poor cooking skills, but a stomach that can eat almost anything and not get food poisoning :)

A new commandment John 13:34-35

Today i was having dinner with one of the guys from the 'New Life' group at our church. This group is a really special group to me. Before youth even started i was serving in the NL group. The group is designed for people that have come from really hard backgrounds, those that have had abuse, or trauma, or mental illness or any other debilitating circumstances in their lives.


I think the greatest thing about this group, is the humility and their open desire for God. They know that they have issues and that they need God, so they are open to God. They strongly desire God's touch in their lives. It's really refreshing... it's great to be with people that don't feel a need to 'show off', to be something their not.


I was having dinner with one of the gentlemen and he shared with me, that he hadn't been out for dinner with anyone for 3 years.... can you imagine??? 3 years he hasn't been out to dinner. It really broke my heart inside... and even now as i write.

3 years, no one took the time to be a friend to him.

I'm not saying anything to boast about myself... i've been in the life group for over 2.5 years, and this is the first time i asked him to dinner... i feel convicted about that...


But then i began to think... just sitting with him, and asking him about his life... getting him to share a little about himself, and listening..... that's love to him.

Jesus says 'By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another'

wow.... that verse really hit home tonight. It's strange... i'm ashamed, convicted, and humbled... yet at the same time i'm happy, filled with compassion, and having just a small glimps at what Jesus meant.

God help me not to forget why you came to die for us, and why i'm running this race. Amen.

Does it matter?

*ben's random thought*



Would i be cooler if i was african and could dance?





- Ben's thoughts after watching 'Stomp the Yard'